Mr Serge Lacombe

Sherbrooke (street Jogues)

6. 55

Here now that I compromises myself with you by the writing, until or will I go? I have the taste to speak to you and it is to some extent a means of reaching you.

You know my beautiful Serge, I have the taste to say to you to which point your freshness and your spontaneous ness seduces me, you are a reflection hidden in a corner of my heart which, I believed good to hide to protect myself. In other words I dressed my own spontaneous ness, I made up it and its essence fell asleep... but with your contact, I have the taste to make it live again, to strip it for better living it. Wow, in more you are a good source of inspiration!

Yesterday evening you said that between us there is a «chemistry» on the intellectual level and also at the sexual level. If in more we can create a «chemistry» on the level of the heart, the emotional one... we will be worth a whole team of accompaniment in the life one for the other. You know if I was to describe the work which I have to make on myself, I would say that this work consists in «creating a balance between the intellect and felt.» In this moment, at the majority of North American human, the intellect is hypertrophied compared to felt. My belief is that by exploring the field of the emotions, each human being can draw an incommensurable richness there because «the emotion creates». I believe that it is there that is hidden the most beautiful treasures... And in more they are all the more invaluable if they are shared! Not, but you really inspired to me...

And it is true that your great youth also allures me... but confronts me much! My greater fear in it, it is your judgement. You see, not only you are young of heart but also you have a body of a twenty year old man and beautiful a twenty year old man (aspect of you whom I love much). However, there or I am confronted, it is compared to my own body. The life passed through me and y left traces. I lived three pregnancies, I nursed two babies and I did not feed always well. On the other hand, I find that for a woman of my age, the assessment is nevertheless positive... I am extremely presentable! But there or I am confronted it is that you have thirty-seven spring but your body forgot to count them. Then you create at me the urgency of a work of acceptance of this aspect of myself and I am not sour to arrive there because my interior judge is very powerful and with work for a long time! Will my thirst for interior freedom be able to propel me until acceptance? (In the direction to release me) is to be followed! On this aspect, this fear of your judgement my need you hide to like a last point which grows of day in day (that you want, you are receptive, «read unavoidable»)

Serge, I realise that I am making you a significant place in my life and I am well in accord with that because I have the taste to live fully what presents and that I judge good for me.

In short, your freshness, your spontaneousness, your youth, your quality to be and your listening inside even of your expression are exceptional «releases» for me. You are a flourishing, diversified and accessible garden. Wow!

I kiss you most cordially possible, XXX